What is going on?

I actually posted the other night, but the internet was not my friend, so it is somewhere out in cyberspace.

It basically was about how remiss I have been in not mentioning that 3 important people in my life, my family are currently being treated for cancer. My aunt, my uncle, and my sister-in-law's stepfather are all doing well, as they go through their various treatments, but they and our entire family could certainly use your prayers.

It is disturbing, to say the least, that 3 of my family members have been diagnosed with this disease all in the same year. It makes me wonder what is going on? My family is very close, and that is such a blessing. Prayer and love are so powerful, there is a certain peace among us that everything will be okay.

Feeling better

So, no miracle pregnancy. It is cool though. It is better than wondering "could it be?"

Today was a hectic, but a good day. I am exhausted, and I still have a lot on my mind, but the fog seems to be clearing. My attitude is brightening. 

Now maybe I can re-focus on finding a way to get this adoption going at full speed. 

Good for me.:)

Rainy days and Mondays

I am not going to let the blues win. This too shall pass. The worst thing is today I can't quite put my finger on why I am so weepy. 

Yesterday, I could have all too easily made a list. Today is a little different. 

Now that I come to think of it, something did trigger this wallowing. 

My body is playing tricks on me!!!

I have fertility issues, so medically I can't get pregnant without medical intervention, BUT I serve an AWESOME God, so anything is possible. In my head I know I can't be pregnant, but in my heart...

I still long for a baby with eyes like my handsome husband. I long to give him the gift of seeing himself in a little person the way I do when I look at Tauri and Jaden. 

I n the midst of all that, I am longing for my baby out there waiting for us to find each other.

Today, I am sad that I don't have a way to fill any of the baby emptiness that I am keenly reminded of because my dagnab period is late!!!!! I miss the baby I don't even have yet!!!! I want them BOTH!!

I don't think the pain of infertility ever completely goes away, but I think I have been quite the trooper throughout this journey, and it just pisses me off when I give in to the blues.

I know with all my heart that God works everything out for good, and His will is PERFECT. THIS TOO SHALL PASS!

I am thankful for my sweet husband, my beautiful kids, my wonderful home, my new church home that I absolutely love, my family near and far, my friends old and new (the family I chose), thankful for the gifts, talents, and abundant blessings the Lord has bestowed and continues to bestow on me, right down to the fact that He woke me up this morning and gave me the ability, and faculties to write this pitiful, whiny post. I am blessed!! Thank You, Father!!!

There! I feel better already. 

Blogging is good for me. You all who read and post on my page are good for me. Thanks for caring. It really counts.

Love,

Starting to slack

I am just exercising my blogging muscles here. 

Lately things don't seem to be going so well on the whole, but at the same time I am so blessed. I just haven't felt right posting about the things that are so heavy on my mind, and ultimately sounding like a complainer. Soooo, I am keeping up with everyone's happenings while laying low.

Anyhoo, I didn't want to get out of the blogging habit as I wait for my cloud of blues to clear.

That's all. So please excuse the superfluous post.:) Later dayz!

I was going to post, but...

when I went to catch up on the blogs I follow, I came across my absolute favorite post of the day! If you haven't already, PLEASE check out my fabulous friend, Wife to the Rockstar's post When Dorks Unite. I am at work cracking up. 

Enjoy!

Happy Anniversary!

I am married to my best friend, the love of my life, my soulmate, the best man I know, and quite the hottie to boot! Sometimes I still can't believe it. Today is our 3rd anniversary. I am always so glad I didn't settle. I waited a long time for him, and kissed more frogs than I'd care to admit along the way, but ohhhhh, it is worth it.

On top of all that, he is an amazing father. Not the kind who is just there in the house, but hands on involved, nurturing, affectionate, and loving. Since I came into our relationship with 2 children (2 and 9 at the time), he was thrown into the deep end of the "Daddy pool" and he swam like a champ. 

I actually could go on and on about my fabulous, talented, intelligent, hilarious, hot, top-of-the-line husband, but I really just want to wish him Happy Anniversary, and tell him and the world (whatever part is reading this) that loving him and being married to him gets sweeter all the time. It is the closet thing I've got to shouting it from the mountaintops. I love you, baby.

Perspective

I was going to blog about my day, and try very hard not to complain, but before I did, I went to Darren and Misty's page, and what I read there suddenly put my day into perspective. 

Misty is healed, just not here on earth. I hope you will continue to pray for Darren and little Olivia, especially in the coming days. 

There is so much and nothing to say. I am touched to the core by the lives and love of the LeBlanc family.