Feeling anxious

Nothing is happening on the adoption front and I am feeling anxious. Patience is not my strong point, but something I am working on. This anxiety can make having this downtime a little tough.

J has either overheard or figured out our plans to adopt. He has been asking for this for quite awhile. We were holding off on telling him because he is 6 years old and, as most kids are, relentless about things that he wants NOW!!! It especially drives his dad nuts. So far so good though. We have had some wonderful conversations about adoption and his thought processes concerning it. He is very communicative and inquisitive.

Before he knew, I felt like nobody else wants to talk about it as much as I do, so I was keeping a lot to myself. Although we have more age appropriate talks, it is very nice to have my little man to talk to about this.:) Is that silly? I am grateful to be able to talk to him in advance about it on his terms. I follow his lead, and it has been going really well. It does however make me even more ready than ever to bring my baby home.

I think that not blogging as much has allowed thoughts to build up too. Everyday I look forward to blogging, but the days have been so jam-packed, I rarely get to get to the computer. I guess I'll have to carve out some time to do this, and see if it helps ease my anxiousness the way it did when I first started this blog. (as if I have been doing this forever lol!) I actually feel better already. Now I can get back to my incessant adoption research. (exhale):)